There is this fine line between being arrogant and being aware of your own value. What do you do when what you know for yourself and what you hold as your deepest, most valued truth and piece of being, is considered inferior by someone who supposedly knows all about it?
All these defining points and grading systems bug me. I know my worth, I know what I excel at. Have known this for over a decade. Yet now, because of one dumb two month course that had almost nothing to do with what I usually do I suddenly find myself.. well, not exactly doubting myself. I don't know.
Mostly it is the complete dichotomy between the grade and the commentary. It doesn't make sense. It doesn't connect.
How am I supposed to accept something I do not agree with, can't get explained and just plain doesn't make sense to me?
Words are the most powerful thing in the world. I know I have a way with them. I just have to remember that I know, not knew. One letter, such a tiny thing yet it can make all the difference in the world.
The thing to do now is breathe, leave it behind me, get over the anger and indignation and try and remember that darn clichéd saying.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Yeah.
Let's start working on that
